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Man-o-man I could just kick myself in the butt! Some of you know that I had started Weight Watchers last summer but after 10 weeks I had to quit going because of money and issues with getting to the meetings while my hubby was at work. Anyways, while I was on WW I ended up losing up to 19lbs at most but sadly, with the holidays and me just giving up, I gained back a lot of weight. In fact, I rejoined WW yesterday and paid for 6 months, so I wouldn't have a reason not to go and when I stepped on the scale, I was ashamed and mortified to see that not only had I gained back all that weight that I had lost, I actually weigh 5 lbs MORE than I weighed when I started WW last summer! YIKES!! Talk about a blow to the esteem! It sucks to have to start all over again and actually have even more weight to lose but I'm going to turn my frustration and disappointment in myself into motivation and determination to stick with it! I have signed up for my first ever gym membership at a local athletic club along with the WW and our homeschool co-op this semester is focusing on health and they've started doing an exercise class for the moms on the days we have co-op (first 3 Fridays of the month). I've also started going to ZUMBA class once a week which is by far my most favorite exercise to do! If you don't know what ZUMBA is, check out THIS youtube video! SO FUN and an amazing workout! Everyone is soaked in sweat halfway through this class!! Totally addicting! So, as embarrassing as it is, here I go again, reattempting to get healthy! My starting weight is now 259.4lbs *GULP* and my goal is to be at least 175lbs by my 30th birthday (Feb. 2nd, 2011). "They" (whoever they is) says for my height I'm supposed to be around 150lbs but I want to aim for what I weighed in high school and judge from there whether or not I want to try to lose more weight. I want to look healthy, not like a stick! I'll post my weekly weigh-in results just for more accountability! I had my hubby take a "before" picture yesterday so in a couple months or so, I'll take another picture to see how I'm progressing...that's when I'll share my pics on here! The parents in our co-op are doing a Biggest Loser weight loss challenge so that's another thing that is holding me accountable and pushing me. I want to kick all their butts! LOL In a lovingly competitive way of course! :) Anyways...I'll keep my blog updated as I venture along this chapter in life!
Today was week #1 weigh-in at our house and I'm proud and extremely excited to report that I lost 4.6 lbs this week!!! WOOOOOOOO!!! Now, I am so beyond excited about that but also mad at myself for having gained 10 lbs over the past 2 months! It's so frustrating that this is going to be a life-long battle for me, trying to maintain healthy weight and always having to watch what I eat and make sure I'm exercising regularly. Why couldn't I have been born with the fabulous genes of just being naturally skinny (not grossly skinny) and not having to worry so much about that kind of stuff? Or at least be born with the gene that enjoys working out and eating healthy! LOL My sister is athletic, loves to run and in fact, the last time she was down visiting, she went for her usual morning run and decided to try to see if she could run a half marathon and guess what...she ended up running almost 15 miles that morning! WHAT?!?! I'm so proud of her but I think, who would want to spend 2 1/2 hours just running around town? That doesn't seem at all like a good time to me! LOL With that said, I do enjoy working out, once I'm in the habit of it and in the middle of a workout. It takes a lot of push and will power to get up and do it but I feel so good afterwards! I've lost my walking buddy because she got a gym membership so she's been going there at night and with it getting dark so early I don't feel all that comfortable walking alone...but I do it sometimes. I just make sure I have my pepper spray and whistle and cell phone and flashlight! My hubby's friend says I should just strap on a big assualt rifle and walk around...sure nobody would think to mess with me then! LOL Hubby has given me the ok to use some of our tax returns to get a gym membership and I can't wait!!! The gym I want to join has a pool and I LOVE to swim! I just need to find a time when no one else is there so I can get in and not feel so self concious about my body! I am determined to lose this freakin weight by my 30th birthday! Just a little under 13 months to go so I better hop to it!
Ok so I've done HORRIBLY with my diet lately and this week I've gained 2 lbs. I'm back up to 250 lbs. *grrrr* but yesterday I switched back to diet pop (I'd been drinking regular pop for the past 2+ weeks) and I'm cutting WAY back on my special coffee drinks from Human Bean. Since life has been so busy lately I'd been getting the coffee drinks almost daily and those suckers I'm sure are mega loaded with calories. I haven't gone on a walk since before Thanksgiving so I desperately need to get back to exercising. We're having a freakishly cold winter this year so that doesn't help along with my lack of motivation to get me out the door in the evenings! With it getting dark earlier in the evening its getting harder for me to go out walking alone. I plan on getting my concealed weapon permit along with my husband and I want to buy a pink pistol and I joke about hot gluing rhinestones on it too...ok, so it's partially joking and partially seriousness! LOL What can I say, I'm a girly-girl! With the world being as messed up as it is and what seems to be an increase in violence in our county, I would just feel better if I could carry a little gun. Not that I'd want to use it but I think even being able to pull it out just to show the bad guy that I'm armed would make me feel better. My husband is a gun-lover so it's like a dream come true for him to have a wife that actually wants to carry a gun! Don't get me wrong, guns scare the ba-geez out of me but I think in this day and age it's definitely worth having and knowing how to safely use. So...when I started my weight loss adventure my goal was to reach my ideal weight by my 30th birthday. I now have about 13 1/2 months to lose 90-100 lbs. All the WW materials say for my height (5'9") I should weigh around 155 lbs. My DH likes girls with a little meat on their bones (which I jokingly just say he likes fat girls...he doesn't think it's as funny as I do) so he doesn't like me saying that I want to get in the 150's so I guess I should say I want to get back to the weight I was when we first met. At 17 years old I fluctuated between 170-175 so to get to that weight I need to lose 80 lbs. That averages out to 1.4 lbs a week that I'd need to lose! OY...I really better start shaping up (literally) or I won't be reaching my goal by my 30th birthday! So, please pray for me! Pray that I have stronger will power, that I can keep my eyes on my goal and not get bogged down or slip into old habits!
Well, Blogger was giving me issues for a few days so I didn't get to post my weigh-in results this last week. I lost 1.8lbs this week! WOO Hoo Now for the clincher...pretty sure I've gained that all back and then some! LOL Dang Halloween candy! I HATE Halloween but my Hubby, being the head of our house says that he doesn't have a problem with it and wants our kids to celebrate it. Our compromise is that I won't decorate the house/yard with Halloween theme (I do fall stuff) and our kids are not allowed to dress up as anything evil or scary. I view it as a night for the kids to dress up and get some free candy and I make sure to teach them why I don't like Halloween but that I respect daddy & his opinions because he's the boss! :) Since I homeschool I chose to focus a few days on the history of Halloween so Keegan (son) was able to learn that Halloween got started as a celebration for a "god" of death. I talked to him about how we know there is only one true and real God and that these people were wrong/confused/misled into believing in fake gods. We learned about why people dress in scary costumes, why they made scary jack-o-lanterns and all that stuff. He still of course wanted to dress up and get candy but he is aware that Halloween as a holiday is evil.
Well, this mommy is super tired! We had trick-or-treating last night and then we have my son's 7th birthday party today. I like to go all out for my kiddos on their birthday so the living room & dining room are all decorated, a cake got decorated, games made, goody bags put together, etc. Getting 9 rowdy boys and 3 girls together on a nice day calls for lots and lots of running and playing! LOL Praise the Lord it was nice, was really worried it would rain like it has been!! I'm off to go get a massage from my sweet hubby (isn't he the best?!) and watch some crappola on tv! LOL Have a great night! I'll post some birthday party pics tomorrow maybe!
Darn it all to heck! LOL PMS got the best of me this week and I managed to eat just about every sweet in the house that wasn't nailed down or in someone else's mouth already! LOL I gained a whole flippin 2.4 lbs this week bringing my total lost back down to 16.6 lbs! Grrrrr.... I even went for my 3 mile walk but only one night and boy howdy could I tell that I had already gotten out of shape! I guess it's been over a month, at least, since I was walking regularly so to go all gung-ho and do my lengthy walk was pushing it! I got all huffy and puffy up a hill that wasn't even phasing me before and my legs & butt hurt for 3 days! LOL I've really been slacking on my diet for the past several weeks so I'm actually surprised that I hadn't had a big gain prior to this one. This is the kick in the butt I needed to jump start me again! Our home life schedule is slowing down (Praise the Lord) so I'm hopefully going to be able to start going on my walks again or at least squeezing in a workout sometime during the day! I think I'm going to make an appt. with my Dr. to get my hormone levels checked out. I've noticed that since I've had my daughter there's at least one week of the month that I feel so low in energy and I have no patience whatsoever which I know is what everyone says PMS is but in my whole 28 years of life, I've never had the mood swings or the loss of energy or any of that and I sooooo don't want to live like that! I don't want my poor hubby to deal with it or for my kids to grow up remembering their mom as a crazy person! LOL Maybe I need to be put on birth control or something to regulate my hormone levels...we'll see! Just not sure which Dr. I need to call...my regular Dr. or my OB-GYNO Dr??? Thankfully that horrible week is over or at least getting there! I was able to get some house work done today that I haven't been able to do the past 5 days! So weird! Anyways, we have our homeschool co-op tomorrow and it's 10:40pm and I don't even have my lesson plan together...YIKES! Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!
